i'll live for myself

I really really hate it when I have to decide on certain stuff.
I hate it when people go, "hey nette, choose between school and rugby." it's like wtf. As much as my heart would be telling to go for rugby (like duhxs), I know the correct and ideal choice would be school. I hate this kind of dingdong, because I ALWAYS have to choose reality over passion. It's always like that.

Touch Rug camp please don't come.

And before I forget, i do not have a habit of letting go. i do not have a habit of letting friends go away from me. NO, I'm not trying to be a oh-so-loyal friend, but c'mon, even animals don't do that. Don't people know what the fuck is 'emotional attachment?' and if you shitheads think that i fell in love, you are a piece of shallowminded piece of frizzy hair. ah, fuck this.

-and as usual, i'll have no clue what am i blabbering about again-

& fuck CT. what's the point of studying? fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.

My hair is begging to be cut.
I'm rather keen on being the short hair girl in the team.
I'm rather keen on being the Sec 4 moi, where junhong thinks i have no gender from the way i behave.
I'm rather keen to try out the renewal process deb was talking about.
I'm rather keen on having selective memory loss, so i can forget certain people and events in my entire life because such stuff only make me depress and they somehow take up alot of space in limited storage capacity brain.

However, I'm not keen on having chewy, wife and husband to assasinate me if i cut moi hair.

Don't worry, just in case you shallow minded people think that I fell out of love and broke my fragile and vulnerable heart into millions of pieces because of a stupid guy, and I'm gonna be a lesbian, That's very "good" analysis. please excuse me while i run out screaming.(HAHHA)

like duh, no! CAN'T GIRLS HAVE SHORT HAIR?! WTF.

I'm feeling very explosive right now. No, I'm not turning lesbian. Gerard Way, Harry Judd, Dougie Poynter, Joe Jonas & Keanu Reeves are still my loves. and yes, they are guys. -sighs. shallow.

the next post would be stuff I need/want to do to improve my kanasai grades. because i need to fucking live for myself.

kanasai.

i love you, not you, but you lah. yala. NO, not you! you!!. walao! YOU!!! NOT YOUU!!! -random......